24 Oct 2017

The first big change in my life // Dada's diary

I keep thinking about the word "home" all the time. What exactly means home for me? Is it a place? Or a feeling? Can I be/feel at home anywhere in the world? Or should this word represent the house I was brought-up in? Do I have the home? Or am I a homeless in this case? 

I used to live in a town until I was 8 years old. We lived in a huge apartment, I had everything near - my friends, a favourite playground and the area where we lived was suitable for a happy child as I was. I had a breathtaking view on our town from our balcony, I loved that. My bedroom was just mine, was designed in white, red and yellow colour. My mum cared about her princess´s room a lot, it was adorable. Everything was perfect, there was no doubt I called this place my HOME with a proud in my voice.
I remember the day when my dad took me for a walk which was not supposed to be a usual walk, my dad did not want to just walk around the town as I planned. We did not even go the same way as usually.  I kept asking him where we were going. He said we were going to a reality agency. I remember stopping in the middle of a pavement and just starring at him. I had no idea what was a reality agency, I thought he was making a fun from me. He softly grabbed my hand and said something like I would understand and everything would be OK (Yeah, sure). I was not THAT stupid child. I knew when somebody said "everything is/will be OK", something was about to happen what would make me upset. While my dad was having meeting, I sat quietly trying to catch the point of the it. I was pretty shy when I was a child, so it was not difficult to make me just sit and be quiet. A disadvantage of this was that I heard everything. I have no idea if my dad really thought I would not understand what they were talking about or I would be totally OK with it (I will never find out since my dad does not remember this moment of our life, I have asked him).

I can still feel the tears which were going down to my face when the meeting ended and I did not have a strength to hide them any more. I cried a lot. But not as a children do when they want an attention. This was a real cry, I was heart-broken. Unfortunately for me, my dad did not recognise the difference. Firstly when hugged me and said some bullshits how I would love our new home and that we did not need that big apartment and so on. I did not believe anything of his sayings. When I did not stop crying, he became strict and just said to me to act as a big girl and to stop crying.

We moved out from the apartment in a couple of weeks. I was still upset and I blamed my parents for destroying my life (just in my mind, I do not think I said it out load that time). But since I had quite strict parents, I had to listen and be a good girl. I did try, I swear. But when you are about to lose something what was so connected with you as the apartment and the place we lived, I was falling apart at almost every occasion. 

The new house was not really a new one. It was a house after my grandparents in the middle of nowhere. Location? Forest, forest and forest, nothing more. Just a beautiful nature for miles. Yes, I loved going there during holidays when I could invite one of my friends and play there with them all the time. But living there? That was a completely different story. 
First of all, I lost my own room. I had to start sharing the bedroom with my brother. Honestly, this destroyed our relationship for a long time - for years. I do not stand for an opinion that siblings should live in the same room, especially when we are talking about a girl and a boy. We had had our bedrooms, separated and private and then we had to adapt to a new type of living. Neither of us liked that situation. 

The house was smaller than our old apartment and it took quite a long time until the scheduled reconstruction finished. 

I used thate dislike my parents' house. I could not see my friends anymore every afternoon. After the school finished, I had to go home with my dad or my mum, I could not stay at the town alone. So, I kind of lost my friends. Some of them did not go to the same school as me, thus there was no opportunity to see them anymore. And the feeling when my other friends were talking what they would do after school and I could not join them, that was hurting me a lot.
I moved out of my parents house when I was 19 years old. I had completely enough. No friends, no privacy, no ability of going out in the evening (since my dad was strict with this rule), "no freedom", no internet connection, zero of young people... I could carry on with a few more reasons. 
It has been more than 4 years since I moved out of the Green House of my parents.
I can look back and say how I feel it now.

I am thankful as much as I can just be. I can see myself clearly when I look at the mirror. That house in that place taught me so much. I am glad I lived there and that everything ended up as it did. I lived completely in nature, ate the best food, walked without shoes on almost all the time. I discovered much more than my friends since they lived in towns or villages. I spent a lot of time alone so I understood myself quite a lot. I was surrounded with the most important things a child could be. Even I did not realise it when I was younger and did care just about less important things. 

I enjoy my childhood home every time I go back. I remember those moments, those places, everything. The atmosphere is so unique, I would wish you to feel the feeling I have in my heart forever. 
I was so lucky.

17 Oct 2017

A few memories of England and the summer 2017 // Dada's diary

Wishing a beautiful day to you.

How are you guys? I have not spoken with you like this for a long time. And that is the reason why I am writing this article. I needed to write something easy so I could just show you a few regular moments which I remember and they have become unique for me. Time has passed and I see them in a different light, I appreciate those little moments, especially from England. 
England. While I was going through photos in my computer, I got lost for an hour or maybe even two in a file called "Journey to England". I got a feeling that I wanted to show you a few more memories of this adventure.
I have articles about England, the most special are those one:


But I should stop talking here. Let's have a look what kind of memories I have.
What I miss the most about England is the town Bournemouth. I loved the place, full of green trees, full of people from all over the world, the unique atmosphere, the sea, the beach. The B'mouth beach is wonderful, it has got about 12 kilometres and we passed it all on bicycles a couple of days before we left UK. 
The desk I had in UK. I remember how disturbing were the stuff lying on the table for me. Unfortunately I did not have any other place where to put them so they had to stay there. I tried to be really organised with the desk and when I look at it now, I am quite proud on myself. It did not look that bad. But still, I was never 100% concentrated because the "mess" was disturbing me :D
Once we bought the Jelly Beans especially on my cries, I wanted to finally try them. This package had 50 flavours inside of it. I must be honest, I was not able to eat all the flavours, even I tried. I still have the disgusting taste of broken eggs on my tongue. Or when Mario swallowed the one flavoured as a vomit... I swear to God, that was the worst vomit I have ever smelled from human being's mouth :-D
On the other hand, there were also lovely ones there. For example tutti-fruti, popcorn, coconut, cinnamon and others.
Btw. The scratches you can see on my arm were from work. I did not try to hurt myself. But an accident like that one could happened just to me. I was carrying a huge box which was too heavy for me (and I knew it was too heavy) but I wanted to be strong. Y
ou can see the result of that.
The last "meeting" with friends for a drink at the B'mouth pier.
The last milkshake (raffaello and peanut butter, the best one I have ever had), the last Starbucks coffee with Mario and the last cider (the cider's brand is Kopparberg and believe, there is no better cider) in UK.
And the last date with Mario in UK. And we have not been anywhere since that one so the very last date was that one. It is weird how I come to different conclusions thanks to photos and memories...
The last walk to my work. I will forever remember that feeling ...
Me, chilling in the coach, watching Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, drinking a coffee you cannot see, having the very last looks on crowded and sunny London and preparing myself for home.
Prague, Czech Republic, the main train station. After the long way from London to Prague we stopped in the first coffee shop and while waiting for the train which took us to Bratislava (the capital city of Slovakia), we were just quite and realising what was about to happen. 
A barbecue at the first exchange of mine. 
Can I be personal, guys? If you want to make me really happy, play with my hair. I love it so much <3
Frozen fruit mixed together, peanut butter, peanuts, coconut and a few crisps :-D Yes, I love sweet and salty food together.
Such a tasty lunch with friends in the heart of Prague <3
It warmed my heart when I saw this wishing from Google. How cute was that :-)
The nature around the village Madunice where I live at the moment. I am going to miss this place ...
And summery Trnava, really nice town which you should visit :-)
Memories <3
Those raspberries were amazing for their taste. I realĺy enjoyed different kinds of fruits and vegetables from my grandparents gardens this summer. The taste is never the same as from the shop.
The song of the Summer 2017 for me.
I miss these Summer mornings with a piece of newspaper and coffee. I just sat at the balcony and chilled.

Hopefully you enjoyed this short article. What about you and memories? Do you feel strong feelings when you suddenly remember a special memory of yours? Do you like step aside and just leave the memory goes through you? Let me know if I am not the only one who do this.

8 Oct 2017

Quotes of OCTOBER 2017 // Dada's diary

Quotes are just words somebody put in sentences. However they make a perfect sense for people who are looking for answers to difficult questions, a motivation, an inspiration, happiness or help.
I am addicted to quotes, I search for them all the time, I take it as a way of relax for myself.
I have been thinking how I could include quotes (that means for me a lot in a current time) to my blog. And I think I have the right answer. I would like to write down my favourite quotes of the month in a article reserved especially for it. So, without further to do - welcome <3



  • Autumn shows us how beautiful it is to let things go.

I cannot do anything more than agree. For the last few months I have gone through difficult time. I had to make loads of decisions which have changed my life. And as I was deciding, I let things go which did not mean that much for me anymore. But let me get this right so you will understand. If I make the change in my life and I decide to let something go it does not mean I stop loving it or I do not care as I used to. It is just a price I have to pay for the opening the next door in front of me. 










































There is no right way to kill someone who does not want to die. Dear animals, I am sorry it took me so long.

Are you shaking your head right now and disagree with the quote and also with me? Well done, carry on
Are you thinking that there might be the truth in the message these words try to send towards you? Good, you are on the way to change something, especially yourself. 
Are you pointing your finger onto your device and agree with it? Hi my green friend <3
I stopped eating meat. After years of health problems without any change I started making a personal research and the first thing I wanted to try was this. To stop eating meat. I wanted to do it a long time ago but I was too lazy and I could not imagine my life without eating meat. Where would I have taken minerals, vitamins and protein from was what I was thinking. What a bulsh**t I had stucked in my head. I finally made the decision. I spoke with my doctor about it, I wanted to be sure I was ready to make this change. I keep checking my body regularly and I must say I have never felt better. Honestly, 80% of my health complications disappeared after I stopped eating meat. I have more energy than ever, I exercise more, my body just works as it should. And the feeling I do not support killing animals is just so relieving as nothing can be. I can say I love animals and I am not lying about it. 
 















What if he thinks about you all the time?
This is supposed to be for girls only, but let's take it for guys as well. I used to wait for him to text me. I was holding my phone for hours, checking it, thinking about him, waiting and waiting. And do you know what? He did not even deserved it. Or the next one. I stopped doing this kind of things a long time ago. Why would I do it? Is it worth it? Is he worth it? Or she? If somebody thinks about you, they will text you, call you, meet you. I do not like these games. They are good just for thing - for hurting and making people upset. I am a crazy person, I am not patient when it comes for a love, if I want to say something, I will. I never keep people waiting just to show them that I do not care but I care. WTF? Where is a logic in this? So, text her, she will be delighted. Call him, he will see you care and you are not another girl who does not know how to stand up for the things she wants.  

Sex and art are the same thing. - Pablo Picasso
Do I need to comment this? Actually, I will. I am really open in this topic, I do not see the reason why it should be taken as something you do not talk about. Well if you do not enjoy sex, then I understand why you do not want to talk about it. But if you like love and enjoy sex with your partner, a friend, a girlfriend, or a stranger- why this topic should be forbidden between people you feel comfortable with? Sex is a beautiful thing. You can disagree with me, however this is my personal opinion I take. I see sex in a same way I see an art, and I adore the art. Actually, my most favourite artist is Vincent Van Gogh. Take whatever you want from it.

See you the next time. Serusky <3

Pictures from: www.pinterest.com

1 Oct 2017

My fourth Erasmus+ project in SLOVAKIA // Dada´s travelling

What a change. Finally I was part of a youth exchange which took a place in Slovakia. How glad I was for the opportunity to be there! 

Let me start with a person thanks to whom I was there. Veronika, you are crazy and I am so happy you shared your travelling craziness with me. There is just one negative positive thing about it - I do not how to stop anymore.
I will explain what exactly happened. Veronika called me four days after we came from Cyprus home (yes, she was there with me) and said to me that we were going for another project which was happening in Slovakia. She also mentioned that "I did not have to go" but to be honest with you, I do not think so she would have taken a different answer than YES. Nevertheless, I fancied going there, so in the evening I packed my stuff and on very early Monday morning I was travelling to Košice.

First of all, it is worth considering some basic information about the project or the youth exchange we were part of.
The tittle of the project was "FROM SCHOOL TO REALITY".
The main topic of the project was youth unemployment in Europe.
The aim of the project was to increase participant's ability to find a work.

I am going to be honest with you as always. I thought there would not be that much to learn, it is about each personality of human being to force themselves to find a work or to find better work. My opinion was that I could not learn more about this topic, you just have to prepare a good CV, get yourself ready a start looking. Well, you should to do this as well, but there is much more to know about European's unemployment and how to find a good job or how to prepare yourself.
We were taught about employment rates in European Union's countries, we were looking for solutions of issues young people whom are out of the school usually have, discussing how the perfect CV should look like, had workshops which were supposed to prepare us for a job interview.
We improved with our communication skills, each of us prepared a time schedule of our Typical/perfect day, we learnt how to deal with stressful situations, we presented Erasmus+ in school (which was very useful and motivating) and of course, we were usually working in teams, so ours ability to work in the team enhanced a lot. 

We also could see two „volunteer" workshops and I participated in both of them. One workshop was about DRUGS, which was interesting and it helped me to realise some things about it. I was mainly watching other's participants behaviour, how they reacted; listening their opinions and looking for the truth around myself basically. It is interesting how much people say without knowing about it. So, this workshop was very suitable for me, I took a lot from it.
And second was quite essential for me. The workshop was ought to presented to us more information about HOW TO WRITE A PROJECT. I do not really want to talk about it here; I am still thinking how I feel about it. But I will share this - I have some ideas in my head and I hope I am able to turn them into reality something in the future.
It was cool to represent the host country of this project; you take and get a lot of stuff from different point of view. The most important – you want people to feel good in the country, especially during the project which was happening in your country. Since the topic of the project was about unemployment and economics states’ of European Union countries; I could see how people took this information about Slovakia, how they reacted on it or what did they say. Mostly they have had quite similar situations in their country, something was better in this country, something in that country. None country of the participated countries was without problems.
So I asked a lot of people from abroad how they felt here; what they thought about the weather, people, towns, anything. I received mainly positive answers, which I was so happy about. Nobody had any serious problem, Hungarian, Czech and Polish people come from almost same countries if we take it generally, so they couldn’t see a lot of different things, although food could have been slightly different for them. In my view, Italians were really positive and some of them adore it here. So, well done Slovakia <3

About the project itself I have to write about some memories which are in my head and I keep repeating them almost all the time. 

We had an offer of visiting a wellness centre which belonged to the hotel where we were staying. I was satisfied with it a lot with it even I did not want to go in the beginning. We relaxed and had so chilly time, we also made fun and I am not going to count how many times I ended up in the swimming pool because SOMEBODY was pushing me into it all the time. But he will pay for that once, I believe in it ;-)

Not just positive things but also one negative thing was going on through the exchange. There were some complaints about our group (or about some people from the group including me). Yeah we made some noise, we smoked in a saloon or in our rooms what we weren't supposed to but we didn't destroy anything and when we opened windows for few hours, the smell disappeared. I am not apologizing for what we did and if I do then just a bit. The final punishment for us was to pay a small fine, which was not that bad. However what was really bad and unfair was that for two nights we had a group of people there (around 30 years old) and that was a mess guys I have to say. I do not really think they would have ever read this article but if they would have, I have got a message for them - What the hell do you think about yourself that you were acting like that?!
I have never seen or heard stuff as they said or did. Disgusting. 
And another essential thing to add. 
Slovakians, you again showed how great people you are. I am so proud of us, especially on our organisational team. I was not expecting this kind of professionalism. Well done, I mean it. Everything was almost perfectly done. I just hope I will be a part of some of yours future projects. 
I desire to work with you again <3 

And to guys from the exchange - anytime you need anything, just call me, come to me, write me, or send me an owl... I will be there or here for you. I will come without any problem. To have fun and go for a party, to experience some adventure, to solve your problems, to chill with you, go for a trip, or just stay with you.

I did let you know I care about you during the last day. Let's not forget.
Take care and see you in the future <3

Photos' sources:
  • Sandra Petríková
  • Piki Jászai
  • Me